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All Christmas Shopping Complete!

2009-12-12T10:05:00Z

Does that make me super organised in a good way, or super organised in a bad way? XD

Rainy Saturdays...And Rainy Sundays XD

2009-11-30T09:55:12Z

So Saturday was a fun day; the Victorian Christmas market with the Lolita. Well, was a fun day until about 4:30 when rain stopped our play and everything got very wet and cold (and therefore not fun) very quickly. Didn't get in for free this year but since I'm a student again I did get a discount price :D T'was nice to see the ones I know and was good to meet a whole bunch of new people. Had some roasted chestnuts (because that's a legal requirement you know) and bought some bloody gorgeous gingerbread. Seriously, yummiest gingerbread in the world EVER! I bought a house for myself and a heart for me fella.

Speaking of whom...

Yesterday we met up in Camden and spent about an hour and a half going around the market (in the pouring rain). He wanted to see/have a look inside Sai Sai so I took him there and have to admit to being quite surprised by what I saw in there. Considering it's been a good couple of years since I last went Camden let alone to Sai Sai, I was rather impressed by the quality of the stuff they're now selling. Not all of it's great, there's still an unhealthy amount of cheap lace, but there are some nice pieces there as well. There was this one really gorgeous dress that I was really tempted to run to Barclays to get some money to buy but I resisted. Fingers crossed they'll still have them in the new year perhaps and then I can treat myself to it XD

Oh, and on a final note: the return of Angel Pretty proves that there is such a thing as evil -_-

Afternoon Tea at Fortnum & Mason? O.o!

2009-10-17T17:22:44Z

Okay, I'm aware that this is going to make me sound like a total gold-digger but no doubt the best thing about dating an older man is how much money he has ^_^;

My current love-interest surprised me on Thursday with afternoon tea at bloody Fortnum & Mason of all places! Can you bloody believe that?! Super posh, super expsensive, but oh so lovely. The food was totally yummy (oh God, the cakes were divine) and everything was just really beautiful from the cutlery to the pianist playing behind us (he played Disney songs for so long XD). And we got to sit on sofas! Can you tell I'm still super excited to have gone? XD The only thing I wish was that he had told me beforehand and I would've dressed up a little (I did feel somewhat out of place in my casual/ita lolita skirt and my navy hoody XD) but I'm still glad to have been taken.

So, yeah, I just felt the need to gush about that a little. Not sure it's really a suitable place for a Tea Party Club meet (because of a, the size, b, the price, and c, the general sedate atmosphere) but I'd definitely recommend going there one afternoon if you have a spare £40 laying around XD

First Week and I'm Already Stressed -.-

2009-09-29T15:13:29Z

Wow, I'd forgotten just how much work comes with being in university ^_^; Or perhaps it's more like this time I actually want to make the effort and do the work (didn't really want to last time). There just seems to be so much to do already though! So many assignments and I've only had two lessons. So thankful that I have tomorrow off; give me time to make a start on things and try to reassure myself that I can do this and I'm not going to buckle under the pressure again.

does the birthday jiggle

2009-09-18T08:18:22Z

It's mah birthday! :D

What does that mean? Well, technically it means that I'm now a whole 22 years old. But really it means that I can sit around and eat whatever I want whenever I want all day until my protesting stomach makes me stop XD

God Damn Customs Charges!

2009-08-25T12:40:33Z

£70.33 in Customs Charges for my Angelic Pretty dress! What the bloody hell is that even for?! I do not earn enough to easily shrug off a fucking 70-odd quid charge on the dress that was bloody expensive anyway! Just as well I've been doing so much over-time lately -.-

Me in Angelic Pretty? O.o

2009-08-11T10:32:59Z

Right this very second I've bought myself my first dress from Angelic Pretty...Perhaps a sign of the apocolypse? XD I'm going to wear it to the September Tea Party Club meet so I won't describe it; you can all just wait and see what it looks like on the day :D

Oddness All Over the Place

2009-07-24T12:52:13Z

Right, so, bit of an update time I believe XD And it'll be numbered for ease of reading!

1) Boyfriend and I have decided to call it a day. He's been over in America for absolute ages and has now decided, upon the death of his father, that he has to stay with his mother for the foreseeable future. I don't blame him and I'm not even that upset; absence did not make my heart grow fonder. So we've gone our separate ways and I am once again single (and still a virgin XD).

2) The job at Hombase has become perminant! Though it means I have to work weekends now which bloody sucks -.- How am I supposed to do anything with anyone when I work at the weekend? Hoping I can switch shifts when I get into university and get a time-table.

3) A new bunny will be purchased once our extension has finished being built. I'm still considering names.

4) Still not as enthusiastic about Lolita as I was before. I think it's because it's becoming too popular. Things bore me when too many people start to do it/wear it/watch it/listen to it. A complete cliche that people always critisise but I can't help it ^_^;

So, yeah, that's the last five weeks summed up in four nifty points. Isn't my life just so eventful and fascinating? XD

Goodbye to Cyanide

2009-06-15T10:42:26Z

Yesterday, the 14th June 2009, my darling pet rabbit Cyanide died very suddenly at midday. I just want to thank him for being my best friend for the past few years and let you all know that without him, I wouldn't have had the inspiration to write one of my favourite stories so far.

So thank you, honey, you'll always have a place in my heart.

I'm gonna be a student again XD

2009-05-13T11:08:19Z

Received an unconditional acceptance to uni yesterday so it's official, come September I'll once again be a university student...Not sure if that's a good or a bad thing ^_^;

sigh

2009-04-30T10:35:04Z

Feeling kinda low at the moment. Really hate work, mostly because of my boss; always seem to be tired now (again, because of work); and also, I seem to be falling out of love with Lolita and that's enough to make anyone depressed -.-

It's not that I don't still like Lolita, I do, I think it's awesome. It's just...Well, it's a lot of things sorta piling up onto each other. For one thing, I seem to be being drawn towards dolly goth more and more and it sorta ties in with the second thing, the cost of Lolita. Can I continue to spend so much on clothes? No. Dolly goth clothes don't cost half as much and are just as cute in my opinion (plus there isn't the constant worry over cheap lace and most of them are machine washable rather than dry-clean only). There's also the fact that I really miss wearing black lipstick and lace gloves which we all know isn't Lolita. And to that you might say "well, just wear that stuff with Lolita then, no one will care". I'll care though, and here we get to reason number four: the Lolita community it growing. Now this is a good thing, I'm glad there are more people around who are interested and enjoying Lolita. It's just, well, I've always compared myself to other Lolita and I never feel like I do as good a job as they do with their outfits and that makes me feel bad. I know it shouldn't, I know I should just enjoy wearing the clothes and not worry about other people and what they might think, but I do and the thought of an ever growing number of Lolita to compare myself to makes me kinda queasy.

But then there's all the good stuff. The fact that I do still like Lolita and I do enjoy still dressing in it. Then there are all the friends I've made through meets and just the general community (you guys know who you are XD). I love going on the meets and I love seeing everyone and having a giggle and talking about stuff no one else would really get, but that's not possible if I quit Lolita, is it? Perhaps it's just for the friends that I'm clinging to it, perhaps I would switch to dolly goth if not for my Lolita buddies and the meets.

Or maybe my hormones are just making me feel gloomy and this time next week I'll look back and think "why that hell did I say all that?" ^_^;

Woah...Retail Sucks XD

2009-04-22T09:40:21Z

I can't deny that I ever imagined I'd enjoy my new job; I knew I wouldn't. I knew that I'd simply tolerate it for the experience and the money. However, I never imagined it to be quite as sucky as it is -.-

The store manager is a complete jerk both in character and behaviour. Whereas everyone else is fairly nice, their behaviour is hardly fair. Yes I'm new, yes I'm getting paid less than you, yes I suppose you all technically have rank over me. That doesn't mean I have to do your work for you just because you can't be bothered or you're "busy" with something else.

It's all right early on in the shift, from about 6am to 8am when there's hardly anyone about. It's between 8am and 10am that things suck, when you're pulled in 500 different directions because people want you to do things. Thank God this is only for 8 weeks -.-

JOB! O_O

2009-04-15T10:22:11Z

I have a job...

I can't believe it! It took so long I was starting to think I was completely unemployable XD

Granted, it's at Homebase and it's only part-time and on an 8 week fixed contract but still man, it's a job! It's gonna be about £1000 I didn't have before (and believe me, when you've been umemployed for so long, that's a hell of a lot of money ^_^;). So yay, I will soon have money, meaning I can maybe buy myself a new dress :D

No jobs -.- And Maid Cafes ^_^

2009-03-17T11:19:31Z

I have come to the comclusion that there are no part-time jobs anywhere -.- Seriously, it's like no one's hiring! Or you have to be ridiculously qualified for them to even consider you! These jobs aren't rocket science! Any Tom, Dick or Harry could do them blindfolded!

You know what would be cool though? Working in a Maid Cafe ^_^ It just looks like a lot of fun, not to mention the uniforms are awesome XD But even if there were Maid Cafes in London, I bet you anything they'd only employ oriental girls -.-

What do I do? WHAT DO I DO?!

2009-02-16T11:34:21Z

Okay, so, yesterday, my parents completely and utterly messed up my life plans for the next God-knows how many years; they've offered me the chance to go back to university.

As you all kmow, my grandad died on New Years Day. However, what you don't know is just before he passed on, my great aunt (aka, my grandad's sister) passed away. Well, we all knew my mum would get some money from her, we just totally underestimated how much.

£50,000.

Naturally, my mum hasn't got any plans for it other than to buy a new greenhouse. The initial idea between my parents apparently was to just pay off my student loan that I accumilated last time I was at uni. That somehow evolved into "let's offer her the chance to go back and pay for it for her".

So now I have a very major decision. Do I continue on with the way things are at the moment and hope I get a job sometime soon, or do I head back to uni in the hopes that I can get a better job in the future? On the one hand, now that I've been given the choice, I would love to go back to uni. Being a little older now, I think I'd be able to handle it better. But on the other hand, I wouldn't be getting a proper job until I was 24/25 which means that not only would I be living with my parents until, like, 30. I'll definitely get a part-time job (too used to getting a regular income now XD) but still...It's a big decision...

All the Unemployed Are Doing It XD

2009-01-30T16:48:18Z

So, since I still haven't got a job and it doesn't look like I'll be getting one anytime soon, I decided to follow my brother's past example; volunteer work. So, from tomorrow, I'll be helping out in my local British Heart Foundation charity shop. Tuesday mornings, Thursday mornings, and Saturday afternoons I'll be helping to heal Britain's hearts just not directly XD

Not a Very Happy New Year

2009-01-02T15:00:09Z

Last night, after a week in hospital, my grandad passed away; he was 86 years old.

He had always been such a stubborn old man and although his health had been failing him for a few years, he always pulled through. I didn't think this time would be any different, I thought he'd be all right in the end, like he always was. I know that everyone's time has to coem eventually, but why did his have to come now? Why couldn't he have held on just an extra day? Just a day was all I needed to get to him, to say goodbye to him, to tell him that I love him and to thank him for everything he's done for me my entire life.

I'll attend his funeral of course, but saying goodbye there just won't be the same. My last words to him were "see you next week" and now I'll never see him again.

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T06:45:43Z

It's another Christmas Day :D Here's wishing everyone a great day and a fantastic New Year. May out days be filled with yaoi and food XD

December! Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

2008-12-02T10:30:28Z

Question: True or false, is December the best month of the year?

Answer: Of course!

It's finally December! And that means Christmas! And that means that I'm on a perminant high and therefore cannot care less that I'm unemployed, and very cold at the moment, and all the other crap that's going on in my life at the moment. Because it's December, I'm just super happy, it would take a major catastophy to bring me down at the moment :D

Last Day of Work Experience

2008-11-05T13:10:58Z

After so many weeks, my first taste of work is coming to an end. I can't say it's been "fun" but it has been incredibly useful and, hopefully, it'll make people a little more willing to give me a job (people only want experienced workers now after all). My supervisor/boss said that she would offer me a job if she could afford it. Money's tight at the moment though (she has a lot of business debts to clear) and she can't afford to take me on.

So it's time to really make and effort to look for jobs again. I think I'll concentrate on just getting a normal office job for now. Then, after I have a few years experience under my belt, I'll go back to my desire of training to be a funeral director. I just need a job at the moment though, even if it's one I don't really want to do.

Oh, the happiness!

2008-10-18T10:16:20Z

My Moi meme Moitie bag came on Thursday! I'm so happy! It's so lovely! Not as big as I originally thought it was going to be, but it's still plenty big.

I got totally screwed on the customs though; £36.75 -.- That means the bag cost me about £160 in total! My parents said it had better last me until I'm 50, the amount of money I've spent on it XD I hope it does last me 'til I'm 50 because I'm absolutely, totally in love with it.

You better believe I'm taking it to the next Lolita meet I go on :D

Still So Tired -.-

2008-10-13T15:12:02Z

36 hours I stayed up Saturday night/Sunday morning. I slept 11 hours last night and yet I'm still tired! Man, I never knew it took so long to recover from such a length of no sleep ^_^;

Fingers crossed that another 11 hours of sleep tonight will set me straight and get things back to normal XD

Just a Bit Too Materialistic ^_^;

2008-10-04T10:36:59Z

I think I might be a little worried about just how happy I am when I spend money ^_^; I've just bought a horribly expensive Moi-meme-Moite bag, one that I really can't afford to be honest, and yet I'm insanely happy. I mean, on the one hand, it's not a completely unneccessary purchase, I do need a new bag as the strap on my Hello Kitty one has been broken for weeks now. On the other hand, however, I could've got a new bag that functioned just as well and cost a mere fraction of the price.

I'm probably thinking about this far too much but I think I might be just a little too materialistic for my own good. I'd make a terrible Buddhist, that's for sure XD

The Pile Won't Shrink O.o

2008-09-29T12:49:23Z

Have you ever been at work, with a pile of stuff you have to do, and no matter how much of it you do, the pile never shrinks?

Sounds like something out of The Twilight Zone O.o

Why Must They Yell? sobs

2008-09-22T14:42:04Z

I have come to the conclusion that adults are mean, mean people who get annoyed and stressed out far too easily -.-

I've been at my work placement a grand total of four days, people can't expect me to be an expert already! I'm doing my best and yet mean telephone ladies try and blame all their problems on me. Don't blame the bank, don't blame the client, no, no, blame the work experience girl who's only just started out!

STOP TAKING YOUR STRESS OUT ON ME!!!!!!!!!!

*cough* I just felt the need to rant, that's all from me for now XD